Sunday, February 19, 2012

Not So Sweet Dreams

Alright...I've reached my limit. I'm done reading books, articles, watching videos, and listening to friends. There is way too much information out there on how to get your baby to sleep, and honestly...not one thing has worked for my baby. I can't tell you how many times I've crumpled into Cameron's shoulder crying because once again my "sleep plan" has failed. There is no putting my baby to sleep tired, but awake. He is either nursing to sleep of crying to sleep. The little man will take three naps during the day but wakes after 45 minutes every time. The classic rock station had lost it's sleeping piazzas. At night he goes down between 7 and 8 and wakes 2 to 5 times at night. Sheesh! I will be honest and tell you I have let him cry to sleep more than once, but it was only because I was at my wits end and letting him cry was safer than me trying to console him at the moment. I read things that say letting them cry does not harm them at all in the long run, and I read that letting them cry can cause trust issues. Not to mention how heart wrenching it is to go about my day while my baby, my world, is having a melt down in the next room. I would rather side on the error of caution and not let him cry. My only other option is to nurse him to sleep. And there is no fooling this baby. I can't slip him a binky. He is wise to those tricks, he wants to real deal. Not only does he want to nurse to sleep, he wants to hang out of my boob while he sleeps. This is where things get complicated. I love nursing my baby to sleep, most of the time. It can get exhausting. And I worry that I'm setting us up for disaster. But at this point I see no other option. I just have to remind myself, things will get better...won't they?..... sigh.....